God's Alarm Clock

I've had alot go on over the last 2 months that has made me take a big look at my health both spiritually and physically. I know, if you know me, you know this isn't my first rodeo sadly, but the circumstances surrounding it are. Over the past two months my grandmother has passed away due to a damaged heart, my uncle has had a massive heart attack, my daddy has had a massive heart attack and had to have a quadruple bypass and I found out this week that my Aunt has had a stroke. Well it doesn't take a rocket scientist to see that my gene pool might not be the best one. I have contemplated heavily about having weight loss surgery, but I thankfully am sooooo bullheaded that I view that as defeat for me personally. (Not to say it will never be an option for me.) Another thing that has been bothering me is my study in God's word. I think I am a good person, I know I try and do good things and always be there for others, but is that really enough, in my opinion NO! Don't get me wrong, I pray and talk with the Lord all day long, but I am falling terribly short in knowing his word. How can I possibly apply his word to my life if all I know is what devotionals, preachers and quick verses I look up say. Soooooo, as of last night at around 12:40 I have decided once again to try and make some changes in my life and pray that I can stick with it. I've heard alot about the 17 day diet, so I read it last night and began Phase 1 today. I even forced myself to eat Romain lettuce! Yuck, hope that becomes an acquired taste. Lol! I also had the privilege of walking another 5K this morning, which got me some exercise in! Was I last, absolutely, but there is empowerment in simply finishing and walking for a purpose. On the back of our shirts were the words, "If you think this is hard, try chemotherapy!". When I think of one of my best peeps going through cancer, gracefully I might add, it really brings forward the reality that I am simply a whiner! I can accomplish anything for anyone, why to I fight myself on doing this for myself? So anyway, I'm blogging again to get thoughts and frustrations out and I'm off on a new adventure. Will I succeed, who knows, but one thing I know for sure, I will NEVER know if I don't try!